WHATEVER

 

pexels-photo-104948

WHATEVER

Whatever I think or don’t think about myself,

or, better said, whatever thinking thinks I think about myself,

whatever I do/did/will do or not do/did/will do

over whatever seems to need something to be done

never affects or effects me

never even touches or get close to the I amness that I am

I am

Always

All ways,

In fact, in spite of all supposed ways.

Independent

Unblemished

Immaculate

Free from thinking thoughts and things

Whole

Complete

One

All

(deep silence)

See?

It seemed that this contemplation lead to the “silence of the mind”, as it is so much said nowadays, but no… it was the realization of what I am that lead to this kind of contemplative meditation… “the mind” kept going on with its movement, but I was embracing it in my conscious awareness of its movement… without trying to stop it… to muzzle it… to distract it… to give it something to ruminate… to chew… to use it properly… with right thinking, right thoughts… positive thinking… divine thinking… no!!!

It can’t be manipulated, deviated, ridden.

Thinking is thinking. It can’t be stopped, it can’t be corrected or used as a mean to get to some desired where… it has to be “seen” for what it is…

just that.

That’s enough.

What I am is the sufficiency that includes all apparent thought needs.

Well, and that’s it for now. Hope it’s not too much… good night (laughs)

 

One Late Night Retreat 2016

 

LIBERATION

pexels-photo-103553

LIBERATION

LIBERATION COMES FROM SELF-REALIZATION

CONSCIOUS AWARENESS OF WHAT I AM

IN FACT, LIBERATION COMES FROM THINKING AND

SELF-REALIZATION LIBERATES FROM LIBERATION

LIBERO (FREE) IS WHAT I AM

BUT, I AM NEVER LIBERO (FREE) FROM THINKING

NEVER BEING FREE FROM THINKING AND, THEREFORE, FROM APPARENT DEPENDENCY

ON THINGS,  PERSONS, SITUATIONS,…

I KNOW THAT ALL IS CREATED BY THINKING:

DEPENDENCY,

THINGS,

PERSONS,

SITUATIONS,

YOU SEE?

THINKING DOESN’T MAKE ME BOUND TO THE THINGS THOUGHT

I AM INDEPENDENT FROM EVERYTHING THAT IS THOUGHT

I AM FREE

FREEDOM

THIS IS LIBERATION OVER ALL THINGS AND THOUGHTS

I REST INCLUDING ALL THINGS AND THOUGHTS WITHIN THINKING

 

PRIVATE PAPERS, MAY 2013

ONE AND TWO

pexels-photo-110201

ONE AND TWO

Never did, nor will, two become one,
Or did ever, or will, one become two.
One is one,
the only,
ever,
reality.
Two is not… it’s just a thought, created by thinking,
Just that, nothing more,
No permanence,
Appearing,
Moving,
Transforming,
Fading,
Like a cloud,
A cloud of pretense knowing, that is, in fact,
a cloud of unknowing…

One embraces two
In the realization of the oneness that I am.

Email writing to a friend (under permission), 07.07.2014
www.whatalexandresays.wordpress.com

LET COME GO (let what comes go)

nature-sunset-water-sun

LET COME GO (let what comes go)

It’s not so much a matter of kicking things, persons, situations, conditions, out of my life.

Not even,  to not let them enter.

They’ll enter any way… and will enter inasmuch as I try to shut the door on them or to kick them off…

It’s more about letting them go…

to not fixate on them, to not believe on them, to not give them credit, to not personalize them, to not fear them, to not give them the power they pretend to have…

to recognize it for what it is…

in the realization of what I am.

Then, they’ll keep on coming and going, but not staying.

They’ll only stay as long as I give them power, “life”, I mean “life” like in a movie, because they have no life of their own, no life at all, in fact.

They have the “life” of a thought inflated by emotion. That’s what moves these lifeless frames… their motion is the activity of thoughts accelerated by emotions.

Recorded Skype Call, 03.03. 2017

​REST, AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN…

pexels-photo-90842

REST, AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN…

This rest that I am talking about has nothing to do with that rest that is in opposition to tiredness…

It is not dependent, nor at the end, of any kind of motion… or emotion…

It is not a stop after an intense and exhaustive type of movement…

It is what rests after all…

It is what is always resting,…, after, during, before, all “worldly” activity.

It is in spite of all… but all have its existence because of it… it doesn’t depend on the apparent movement of things, but all things depend on its stillness…

all things exist “in” it.

Well, well, this is it…

Alexandre

Skype Session, 12.02.2013​

FIRST & THINGS

Look, I don’t have to know a lot about the things of the world, about the movements of the world…

I know that it seems to move always toward the same goal: to fill, to fulfill, to occupy, to get something, to get somewhere, to become something…

It also works contrary: to get rid of something, of someone, of some situation…

And, after all, it is always deceptive.

The man of the world never really gets something, never really gets somewhere, is never satisfied with his achievements, one day wants/needs something, the other day doesn’t, the other day does something else…

One day things are something, the other are not…

Science, in its efforts to understand the world, to control the world, to “make it a better place to live”, is getting nowhere… and getting the world nowhere…

It supposedly helps with a lot  of new advances, conquers, discoveries, just to find a lot of new more diseases, troubles, wars, instruments of war (most of them discovered/created by the selfsame science)…

Great discoveries, that were true in some way and in some time, are always and all ways getting obsolete, false, and, most of the times, contradictory with the previous scientific truths…

That’s all I know about this world movement… and, most of all,  that’s all there is about it…

It is condemned to failure because it is predicated by faillure…

So, again, “first things first”, or, better, let’s get “things” out of the way…

And stay with “first” first and all (at least for now…), because first is what I am,

and it’s true,

indeed,

truth.

The first and only truth.

what am I?

I am!

That’s the only thing I can really say, or not say, about my self.

I am

I am here

I am now

Everything else are thoughts about what I am…

I stay as this I amness,

Everything else passes,

I stay

I am

I am is not “I want to be”, you see?

I am is I already am!

Thoughts come and go when I am being aware of this amness,

They’re transient, but this sentience prevails

It doesn’t think,

it is “beyond” thinking,

aware.

Thinking occurs in this sentience, with things/”thinks”  coming and going.

This sentience stays,

as it is,

As I am.

I am this I am(ness).

12.02.2015 Skype Talk

STOP IT

pexels-photo-113726-largeSTOP IT!

This is not a STOP! to the scene…

It’s a stop to resist it,

A stop to react to it,

A stop to try to re-acting the scene,

To try to turn it into a better picture,

To try to re-arrange it,

To try to work it out outwardly,

(“work things out”)

To try to work it out inwardly,

(Rethink it)

There’s no outward,

There’s no inward,

No inside,

No outside,

No in, (although, it can be said that everything is in, as all included)

No out,

No sides,

Just I

Just I rest

Just I am,

Still oneness,

All the rest are dualistic movements in/of thinking,

That I express,

And

That I include,

In this I amness, that I am.

This is all I “have to do”: I – dentification…

Then, it, the scene (the thinking production), rewrites itself, by itself, for itself,

only,

this time,

it appears more in conformity with oneness,

Well, inasmuch as it is possible for thinking… LOL

 

Algarve Talk, 2014 Summer